The outing that went bad

As I walk back to my train I wonder was this trip worth it ? Was going to see the same movie twice worth it? Was being aggravted until my head hurt? No No Noooooo.... It definately wasn't. First of allllll I passed up possibly going out with boys for a wonderful night in the city drinks music ect. all to meet this guy from bgc lol I kid myself by thinking that bgc has anything remoty interesting that will ever hold my attention. But here goes, his name for this blog will be dancer boy so he asks me a few days ago to go out today to see a scary movie and since I already been out this week to see everythig I said hey what the hell why not see it in 3D lol. The movie was still wack but this boy was too much, too affectionate for the first meeting or outing cus it definatywas not a date. He first of all was over dramatic for no reason it was like taking a girl to the movies, he took his shoes off and got comfortable and throughout the movie he had his feet on me and reached over and tried to hold my hand. He didn't try but he was holding my hand itried to brush it off without being rude but I said hey what the hell just watch the movie it's almost over. After the movie was over we walked to his car and he started saying where do you want to go for dessert so I replied I don't know, I don't know what's around here. That set it off he started going in lol he was like I don't understand how you can't decide on where to go for dessert, he said I do not have a take charge personality and I just roll with wind. I did not deny that I am the type to roll with the wind but only for a little while. I don't think I was at all interested in him when he said he works two jobs so that he can shop. Guys like him don't hold my attention for long because hey have no drive to make their lives better than a superficial temporary adjustment of their out of control life. I am what I ask for in a guy, drive and ambition, I can't date someone that works two jobs to just spend money, who thinks volunteering for free is not interesting. This leads me to belive that I have figured out why I am or have been single for so long these guys have no substance no drive no abition no dreams. Dream killers are not for me, and as I sit here in the path station I regret coming here this guy was too much for me emotionally. He did not understand that I am not the type of person to hold hands in a scary movie, i am not used to a guy being inbetween my legs whilE in public. I'm not used to that from a guy I just met and started talking to a few days before now. I'm not even too affectionate with people or guys that I have known for years, it's just not me. Which he had a hard time comprehending and thought that there was something wrong with me. He was at a loss for words because he could not understand me, which no one can. To understand me you would have to be patient and willing to learn and not quick to judge. This outting is the last one for a while, I will take my chances with meeting someone in a club or something, maybe even at school, who the hell knows. Maybe I did it on purpose, make him not like me subconciously maybe I didn't like him from the moment I met him. Maybe I should have been blunt and rude as I can sometimes be when forced to be, but being rude is unlady like lol and too add on, I am a nice man that is tolerant. But if anyone that reads this knows a decent guy that is attractive and has the qualities of a possible partner that would be a match with me leave a comment asap lol..... Just kidding.....

Question to the reader....how do you define an adult, what is an adult, how do you know you are an adult?

Boys boys boys

It was a little strange to hear someone beg to see me as if it was their last dieing wish or someone offer to suck my dick just to see me. I never thought I could be or would be that important to people....well guys in particular. So last night I went on a midnight date to see Halloween 2, it's a waste of money get it on bootleg. The guy I went with is cool but I doubt we will be more than good friends, we dated for a while in the begining of the year and things looked promising but he got a little too attached. Whenever we would go out and I get ready to drop him off at home he never wanted to get out of the car. We would sit there for hours sometimes talking or just in silence, he did most of the talking. I never knew that he liked me until one night he asked me for a kiss and at firsti was hesitant, not because he had bad breath but because I didn't this kiss to make things complicated between us. So I gave him the kiss because he wasn't getting out without it lol. Sad to say that was the last time I saw him up until last night. The time apart help me seperate myself from, but last night I seen that he still has feelings for me. Was I wrong for neglecting him before?????? By the way HE also is younger and his friends be trying to talk to me and he is a total bottom. He offered to suck my dick just to see me.....so what should I do?

My first blog

This is my first blog so it may be kind of boring but I do hope it will get better. Someone talked me into doin this so I am going to see how this goes. Oh and by the way I'm not a girl I just chose Mary poplins because it's what popped in my head while creating this.